After breaking up, using toys to help me connect with my body

Breakup changes not just your emotional state. For me, the end of a long-term relationship is left with an indescribable feeling - the loss of intimacy is not only intimacy with others, but also intimacy with one's own body.

Before we broke up, we hadn't had close contact for several months. The silence in the bed is not new, but the loneliness that comes with it is even stronger. After all, I am the only one now. I don't miss that relationship. What I miss is the feeling of enjoying physical contact without having to worry about self-doubt. I miss the feeling of comfort and freedom.

To my surprise, I found my way back not through someone else, but through a vibrator.

The first step is emotional, not physical

In the weeks since the breakup, I couldn’t even imagine the feeling of getting intimate again. I felt tired, uncertain, and to be honest, I was embarrassed by the alienation between myself and happiness. It has nothing to do with sex—it’s about comfort, security, something that belongs to me.

I have read that using toys can rebuild your intimacy with yourself. It sounds good, but it's abstract. Later one afternoon, I ordered a small bullet-shaped vibrator online without thinking much. I chose the softest, quietest I could find—it felt more like a hint than a statement.

Diose's beginner-friendly bullet vibrator is designed for such moments – gentle, quiet, easy to access and stress-free.

Create space without expectations

When I first tried it, I didn’t set a goal. I just wanted to see if I could feel something—without shame, without any performance, without any judgment.

I did. It is not fireworks, nor is it an epiphany. Just a hint of warmth. After a moment of calm, my body regained itself.

At that moment, I finally had the courage to try again, again and again.

Reconnection is gradual, but real

I learned to like being touched—not for others, but for myself. I learned that sometimes I need more peace than sensory touch. Lubricant makes it feel smoother. This tranquility is very important.

according toJournal of Sex and Relationship TherapyResearch, exploration of solitary self-nature after emotional trauma helps improve self-cognition, emotional regulation, and physical acceptance. The process of choosing, using and caring for sex toys is not only a physiological level, but also a psychological level affirmation, making your body worthy of gentle care.

It's not about leaving someone, it's about going toward myself.

I know now

• You don't have to be "ready" to start over. Curiosity is enough.

• Rebuilding your intimacy with yourself is effective, healing, and powerful.

• Toys cannot replace love. It reminds us that happiness can be self-sufficient, but it makes equal sense.

Diose is more than just producing toys. It supports moments like this—private, personal, necessary.

Start now, start with gentleness

If you feel physically alienated after a breakup or emotional frustration, remember: intimacy can start with you. Whether it’s a gentle touch, a quiet night, or some kind of tool that will regain your sense of security, your comfort is effective.

You can use Diose Home PageExplore options for beginners, or if you are not sure where to start, you can click here to contact us. You don't need to know all the information to take the first step.